We are hopefully in our last month of fertility treatment. The cysts are gone and I am on fertility medication (Femera). If all goes well this next week, we will probably do our third--and last--IUI next weekend. So, it's either "third time's a charm" or "three strikes, your out." You know which one we're all praying for!! I'm ready to be done with all of this focused "trying", but I'm glad we are doing this one last procedure. I am humbly asking for your prayers again this month. You all know how badly we want this to happen, and after so much disappointment it's difficult to let ourselves hope. Those of you who are close to me probably feel the same way.

I know God can move mountains, so I know this is not too big for Him. It's very comforting to really realize that no matter how slim our chances seem from our human perspective, in reality it has no bearing on God's ability to make something happen or not. It doesn't matter if we have a 20%, a 15% (or less) chance of getting pregnant. It could be a 1% chance. Our God is not limited by percentages, chances, nor odds. He can do ANYTHING. If we are meant to get pregnant, God will allow it to happen: no matter how the deck is stacked against us. Period. Beyond being faithful in prayer, obedient to His leading when He moves us to action or tells us to wait, and carefully following His word, there is nothing more we can do. At first that thought was terrifying to me because I realized I wasn't really in control. But I feel like God has brought me to a place in my life that I can be relieved that I'm not in control. I KNOW my God is good and that He causes all things to work for my good to fulfill His purpose. Knowing that--really believing that--makes all the difference. I hope you, too, have that same assurance, because it brings such amazing peace. I'm not saying I always feel okay about this situation. You know from my past blogs that it certainly wouldn't be true! There are many times that I am so angry and frustrated and sad in my longing. During those times I wish that God had never placed this desire on my heart in the first place. But even though I don't understand God's complete purpose in this, I do understand that He has a purpose in this. That's why I can have peace.

Thank you in advance for your prayers. I know God is listening and that we can move Him with our prayers. I believe that in faith, and I hope you do too. I'll keep everyone posted! :)