I'll go through the valley if You want me to

I've waited for awhile to post a new blog because there hasn't really been any news to report. We're still waiting on God's timing for another child. I keep praying that He would let me know if I shouldn't pray for this to happen anymore, and I haven't gotten any indication that I should stop, so I just keep praying away and pressing on. I would love to say that I am patiently waiting, but that is not always the case. Next cycle will mark the 2-year mark since we started trying to conceive. We NEVER imagined it would take this long, but we've learned that God has a much grander imagination than we do! I will always trust His plan to be much better than my own, but it's sometimes difficult to keep the doubt at bay. Especially now that Brian and I are 36, my kids are 10 and almost 12--it just feels like time is slipping away. But since God is the Father of time, I guess that really is inconsequential. I would appreciate your continued prayers for our patience (especially mine), hope, and faith. Also, could you please pray for our direction and discernment concerning some future decisions we'll be making regarding this.

As I've said before, I am so thankful for the journey, however painful it has been because it has brought me to a new level of faith in my Savior. The following lyrics are to a song from Ginny Owens called "If You Want Me To." I've always loved it and have drawn extra comfort from it these last few years, and I pray you will, too.

The pathway is broken
And the signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why you brought me here
But just because you love me the way that you do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If you want me to

Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise you're not through with me yet
So if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will go through the fire
If you want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But you never said it would be easy
You only said I'll never go alone

So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear you answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering your love put you through
And I will go through the valley
If you want me to